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A beautifully crafted movie with loads of emotions, teary eyed scenes in a short span of time. This is not just a movie for a lot of us, it is our last chance to see a beautiful soul working hard to prove to us how we ignored him until now.

Sushant Singh Rajput today is a household name, a name that flashes on our TV sets and we can’t stop thinking that if he told the world how he was suffering, would they support him, would we as fans support him. Did it take him to die to prove to us his worth and for us to act upon..

The media is all over the place pointing it as a murder, fan believe that it is a murder too as such an intelligent, positive boy; one fine morning decided to end his life. If media and posts are to be believed he was playing Call of duty minutes before he died, which raises a lot of questions.

Dil Bechara felt to me as if the universe knew it would be his last movie. This movie probably gave him a platform to show everyone that even when he was struggling, fighting within, he had that big smile and a heart to hold others dreams close to him. Manny, you taught us that however difficult times become for one, you should also help others and put a smile across their face when possible, however possible. Often the case is, such people are empty within and find it difficult to open up to others, maybe because they are scared to show how vulnerable they are… only if somebody told him that it is ok to open up, ok to share, ok to cry your heart aloud rather than saying a Goodbye….

Just like your movie, in reality you just went off suddenly, opening a channel of questions, an unforgettable pain to your family and friends. Manny, you deserved someone who could fulfil your dreams, just like you managed to fulfil Krizie’s dreams, someone could help you complete your tune too. Life is incomplete always unless we want it to feel complete.

I still cant believe you are no more, still in a state of shock, a denial. I still want to believe that after the movie ended, you would walk and applaud for your performance and i will get to see this talented star again. But unfortunately you are a star with other stars now right where you often spent hours staring at – “The Sky”.

As you said, ” Janam kab lena hai aur marna kab hai yeah hum decide nahi karte, par jeena kaise hai woh hum decide kar sakte hai”. You dint have to be strong, you just had to be normal….

Missed forever… loved forever… remembered infinity… “Seri”

#love #forever #sushant #lifeisincomplete

The whole world is currently upside down, coronavirus indeed has made us realise that whatever you do never leave your family behind as they will always be there for you. It’s like a season of Money Heist… we have to be trapped inside a unrecognized place to know what we really want.. When the stakes on life is higher than money.

During this time there has been even more emphasis on health be it physical of mental. Being in a state of lockdown for more than 3 months, surely has taken a toll on all of us. But the least we could do is be grateful for what we have now unlike the thousands who are suffering to either have proper medical attention or to reach back homes alives. we are blessed to be home and have our stash of food and belongings.

In our busy days we hardly get the time to relax and chill, spend the quality time they say. This pandemic has taught us to spend quality with ourselves. There has been a rise in calls asking for help on mental health. Depression, anxiety, stress, loneliness, and many more to go. Wherever you go always take the time to appreciate what you have and what you can give, giving doesn’t has to be by hand, it could by simply making a call and checking on the people in your contact list who have been there for years but we hardly noticed. This one call could save someone’s life. The situations around are so tuff on some of us that we appreciate talking to even a stranger as he wont judge us.

Try to give as much as you can emotionally and mentally to others as monetary is temporary. What will be with you eventually is all the unspoken words, the desire to express and the longing for best wishes.

When you are alive make someone’s life better rather than crying over someones death.

Have you ever been lost.. not merely physically but mentally. you are in a group of friends, there is laughter around, jokes playing in the house, you are smiling and cheering for your friends and suddenly the next moment you just disconnect. You feel you are lost in between all this chaos, you are somewhere else and not in your friendzone anymore. You can hear them clearly but you are lost in your own world of thoughts. You cant connect to them. This happens unintentionally and you want to get back but you cant… you just sink inn and be there for a while… Does this happen to you….

Suddenly a sense of pain comes inn, you cant feel the happiness that is around you but you feel a sudden loss, an excruciating pain or a feeling that you have lost something important. You subconsciously feel hollow.You don’t know what it is and why this is happening but you can only feel it. It makes you annoyed to feel why this pain, and so sudden and you try to search within yourself the reasons but you cant find any….

This sudden exit from the now world makes one anxious, makes you want to run and find for the reasons, but you just cannot and would not; the happiness, joy nothing matters. When i was trying to search for reasons of such behaviour there were a lot of terms that popped inn but i couldn’t relate to any. This is because when you are trying to find answers for something which you yourself dont know how can science claim it is an mental illness or a deprivation of emotion. You do come out of this zone too but just the unknowing of the knowing is what makes it difficult.

There will be a lot of us who would relate to this and would feel what i say.. do let me know your thoughts on this..

Don’t you feel excited and overwhelmed to be the star in someone’s eyes . From amidst the crowd, you want someone to always be there for you, around you. The need to be wanted makes us feel on top of the world. Some are lucky to have one person and some have many around them. But it’s quite vicious as to how priorities keep changing and so do people.

Our connect to disconnect percentage is highly based on the days performance. A happy day, means we can chat with anyone and everyone throughout and a sad day, just wants you to avoid all the gaga and meet someone either tooo special or go n sleep without anyone.

What happens during this transition phase, do you change suddenly or they.. or it’s the way you see or they see you. It bothers me a lot when someone talks to me for hours and then suddenly disconnects for weeks. I kept believing until a certain period of time that it’s my fault, I must have done something that bothered the person… but as time passed by I realized, it’s not about that person or me, its about which phase I entered their life or vice versa. Once the phase is over, you move on to the next one with a new set.

At some point, we all have been through this phase… you mean the world to someone for a certain period of time and then boommmm your world comes crashing down…Taking out 5 mins from your whole day or week or month to talk to this person seems difficult.

Attachments do hurt, but what hurts more is knowing we held on to something for too long and so firmly that it got remolded.

Many of us find it difficult to let go. We try and hold on to things that keep hurting us with the fear of losing. Never realizing that the letting go is better than holding on to shattered pieces.

If love could be a free bird then feelings should be the sky….

Having been away from the limelight feels so good and refreshing. I have been longing for a vacation since a decade and trust me each day was worth it during the last 30 days. You cherish each day of your vacation and I tried it by a new way, by “ De- Technifying”.

It is certainly a ritual that every photo we take on a vacation has to be uploaded on Insta, FB, we need to create stories and share what’s happening…. i remember running around looking for charging points in my previous trips as i was always eager to upload and check my feeds..even power banks gave up on me sometimes…

Try the other way around, try switching off your data and enjoy the moments instead. Live in them and try to relive them.  We try to capture our beautiful moments to create an unforgettable memory.. but in the process, we forget to cherish the real beauty with our own eyes. We see the world through a lens now a days and have forgotten that we could use our own eyes too.

Its like a dream I live now as I close my eyes, I see the greens, I feel the rain water dripping down my fingers, the smell of home made food, each moment is fresh and alive. Memories are born each minute and we can cherish them forever in our hearts only if we make it worth while it lasts…

Remember we made technology for our use and seems like technology is taking us for a ride..

Do share you experience if you have tried “De-Technifying”.