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From Me to You…

“You have turned my world upside down” was the thought that flashed my mind when we met, without knowing that it would be the same even after so many years. True love as they say comes with no restrictions, no place or no timeframes and I presume it was true as they said, love knew no bounds, indeed if it did I would be not be in your arms right now.

Some relationships are not merely confined to a physical presences, it is felt. It is often said you can’t be in love with someone when you are already committed, but can we restrict love by boundaries. People will call this lust, some will call this infidelity, but when this love is not bound to physical but emotional needs, what would you call this then..

God has made all of us different and we love what differences teach us and make us believe, ours was a story of love in differences. Being extreme opposites of each other, he blabbering most of the times and me being the silent listener, he being the charm in everyone’s eyes and I being his shadow, love grew over the years. It was love at first sight for sure, not only for me but for him too.

Amidst the crowd he stood out and I still managed to charm him with simplicity. He made every way to get in touch and we moved forward chatting, singing, gossiping and being together. But as they say, everything comes with a package of its own goods and bad. We did too.

Love for me as been a very complicated term, especially when it has left me heartbroken most of the times. But for him, it was a simple term, just love without expectations. I envied this but it made sense today. We all love with expectations, parents love the kids hoping to have them in their older days, spouses love each other to have a companion (even if it means by compromises) and to prosper together to become a family, our love for God is mostly to ask something in return for the offerings we give Him. Can we love without expectations is something to be pondered on.. The spiritual path takes us to self less love, to thank Him for all the beautiful things in life and have Him by our side always without always asking for something. There will be many instances of self less love in our everyday lives but I’m pretty sure they weigh less than the ones asked for always.

To love him was the only expectation he had on me and I couldn’t thing otherwise. This did not mean that we dint carry on with our personal life’s but having someone to think of in your heart by itself is a beautiful feeling. Probably they say that you click the instant you meet, words flow and you don’t need vocabulary to connect; feelings do the talking. Being in the happy place is what matters in the end I felt. We live in a world who teaches us what is wrong and what is right and that’s purely because someone has defined it for us. Every time when you make a decision ask yourself and not the world because the world is not going to help you out when you are stuck or you prosper. Being a destiny child throughout my life, I always think, things happen for a reason in our life. We don’t meet people by chance, or they don’t just come and go. It’s our choice completely on whom we want to hold back in our lives and whom we let go. Life is too short to be wasted and think on what will be happen 10 years down the line. We need to live for today, we enjoy the day and cherish the moments we have now because love lasts forever, life doesn’t.

I have known others before

They loved me in a lot better way,

But I haven’t held anyone else So close,

As I hold you today…

Your breathe makes me quiver,

Your touch makes me shiver,

Your hug takes me to another world

I wish I could hold this forever

Destiny always has its plans

You know that well too

Don’t be scared my love

Because I am here for you.

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Love remains…. Feelings don’t…..

Love is in the air today and so am I 🙂 …. The roses, the gifts, the redness all over my office is taking me to another world.

We all have had our share of experiences in love.. We fall in love, live in it and some fly out of it too soon to fall again. Do you remember the first time you fell in love, being tongue tied, racing heartbeats, the look in your eyes, the shyness, the blushing, the endless wait…. This just rushes me back in time, the day I met him.

Coming from the same neighbourhood, friendship taught us how we could bear each other even if meant killing each other the same time. Having known him from the age of 1, we knew this was meant to happen. The cupid will strike.. He being a sexy hunk who knew how to run his fingers through his hair and impress a girl with that smile(he still does) and me being the hottie around, making boys run for their money… IT HAPPENED.. Somewhere inbetween our small fights, arguments, late night walks, and never ending gossip… love happened…

The first love, the naïve love as some describe it, becomes very difficult to understand as having him as a friend for most of my life and suddenly the equation drift. From hitting each other to holding hand, from being his wingwomen to being HIS women, everything was so different. But what remained intact was our friendship even throughout the love saga. Going on long bike rides, introducing each other in front of friends as mates was a change altogether. Few guessed it before and few couldn’t digest it as you will always find thorns inbetween flowers. Those special years of our life will always be cherished.

Though parents did not allow us to go for late night parties, or night outs, being in the neighbourhood always helped as we could loiter around any time of the day. Days passed by and years did, love grew stronger and there was nothing else other than us that existed.

Few years later, the harsh reality called “LIFE” struck. He had to travel for his further education and I was pretty much in the same premises… Initially the distance dint matter as emails were sent on regular basis but as time passed by, life got busy and boommmm…. Those times, without this technology of video calls, facetime, constant social media, our relationship hit a setback. This distance created a huge gap in our relationship. Being away from each other for almost 2 years and communicating only by emails, drew us apart. Love remained…. Feelings seemed to disappear.

Ideally love is never to complicated, relationships are… The beauty of our relationship was that even after all this, when we met heads on, all the emotions came alive and love was back again, but the thought of separation was scary and we dint want to talk.  We had to decide to grow apart mutually or carry on with the long distance fights and kill our relation.. a decision had to be taken before he left, and this time for a longer period…

He always called me a destiny baby…as destiny has a plan for you always and it held true, we decided to live our life’s separately. This decision killed both of us… we both were petrified.. just soulless bodies in two different countries wanting to be back again… Life became a full stop. From being extroverts, we both turned introverts, alcohol was the next best friend, and we just wanted to date someone else to move on…an easy escape we thought…. nothing helped.. absolutely nothing…. We always made sure we update our whereabouts to each other as we just couldn’t cut off completely. We both lived similar life’s in different countries.

Somewhere this breakup taught us, we couldn’t be without each other. Anxious, we decided, after a year’s break, to be back together and stop ruining others life… life was beautiful again but short lived too…

Love is mystery as it can teach you to live with the person and to grow out of him too…

Happy Valentines day people ❤️

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Far Away… But Close Enough

My email is been bombarded with love messages, the network providers oozing with love offers… This amazing week is the Valentine week as they say or the V-Day….But do we really celebrate Valentine week after college?

It was a fancy during college days, who would take whom out, what to wear, where to go….and after all this fancy time, suddenly all the love vanishes as soon as the month is over…. like do we really need a day to celebrate love or is it just another game we play to fit inn. (I personally have no offenses in people celebrating this day happily. I would love to meet them someday…)

The V day has always been special as i have my best friends birthday falling a day prior to this day… so practically even if i wanted to go out on a date, i had to make sure she is with me 🙂

Having known her for more than a decade now, i know she is so far the best choice i made for myself . From writing each other assignments, to buying alcohol on our breakups.. we have seen a lot of ups and down.. to a point where we did not talk to each other for a year… but nothing could tear up apart, even that period of hate (touch wood). Closer by heart, but separated by distance is how we describe our self’s.

As they say, when you truly love someone, distance never plays an important role, and with her this holds true. It never worked out on love relationships, but with her, its magic… Its ironic, we both decided to part ways for our careers, relationships the same year and the same month. Its been 5 years now and we have met only once, but even today when we call each other our conversations start from where we left them. Its surprising on how beautifully the chemistry works which somehow never worked so good with our respective partners. Life is different when you have someone who can treat you the same way as they did 10 years back. Having to confide into someone when you want to; irrespective of a physical presence. It is truly one the best relationships to cherish forever. She is my 2 am friend, even if we are in different time zones… She have always inspired me to be a better person and continue doing so by staying with me as a ghost…

Indeed best friends are a blessing and should be always placed higher than your love is what i believe inn…. for love can change, friendships don’t…..

Friendships don’t just happen as love does… treasure it, preserve it and let them know today

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A EAR to an Ailing heart

Often i have come across instances where we play the blame game; between friends, family, coworkers, our perfect soulmates 😏 ….   who’s wrong who’s right, who is perfect and who is not ….

Irritating as it sounds, but i recently had to babysit a married friend of mine. I could see it in her eyes that she is frustrated and almost battling her tears. One more minute of silence and she would be in depression. She had everything settled in her life… A perfect family, non-grumbling in-laws, a loving and caring husband, an adorable, cute, well behaved kid who was mature enough even before the age of 1.

Not everything you see is to believe i thought… While she cared for everyone around her, took interest in what others wanted, emotionally and physically catered to everyone, but no one to do things for her. She felt alone in this home crowd..I thought this is what happens to most of the married women… Sacrifice or rather willing do everything for others and later regret as to why they did not live their own lives.

Why to take oneself for granted. Maybe because of this, everyone else does and doesn’t value you. She spoke for hours and hours and i sat their with my cup of tea listening to the howling and weeping. And after this ended, she got up and was all set to to repeat the same practice. I tried advising her that don’t do things that don’t keep you happy; and she replied, “They are my happiness”.

Its strange how we perceive the world. But maybe what my friend needed is someone who could hear her out and not give advises. This is what a lot of people in the world need. Somebody to talk to.. We have sooo many friends, perfect relationships, but we cant go and confide into that one person in a problem.. It is depressing to read so many suicides happening around which can be stopped if we decide to talk to someone.

We cannot change the whole world… but we can start with one.

 

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“Do you wonder the wondered”

Often sitting at my office desk, i wondered, why on earth am i doing this…. a talented girl who can make the world go around her is sitting and making reports, coordinating the office work, taking shit from people, like whyyyyy….. frustrated, anxious, curious, i open this site and thought lets connect. It’s not like we don’t have apps and browsers to connect now a days, but connecting through writing is still a different experience.. It’s like the pleasure some people get while reading a hard copy book can never match the online way of reading the same. That is me, that could be US…

I may not be like those typical bloggers who are great with words, but i am sure to connect or at least try my best too.. because many of us are sailing on the same ship… without knowing where it will take us or what are we going to do on it.. but we still sail the journey with strangers on board and a wish for excitement.

We all have at some point in our life’s wanted to wonder so as to why do we do some particular things…. for example pleasing your family, friends, boss, girlfriend, boyfriend or with an ‘s…. It gives a temporary good feeling, but that doesn’t lasts long, as you have too keep repeating this pleasing process time and again to have their memories stay. Some are fortunate to have this feeling stay forever and some are again put in the try and test phase. Its good to wonder as it proves two things, ONE that you are alive, TWO you have a brain to think 🙂

I always hated the long blogs which went on for ever and ever (no offenses). so i promise to keep it short…

Do read and let me know what you Wondered…

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